But I did nothing to die for. I keep repeating that in my mind. The seconds are going by, tick, tock, tick, tock, tick, tock. I have a mere five minutes in which to live. But I did nothing to die for, I repeat in my mind. I know why I have to die, but it makes it no easier to process. Tick, tock, tick, tock, tick, tock. I slowly get up from my chair. I have no choice but to walk to the airlock knowing I have but few minutes to live. Tick, tock, tick, tock, tick, tock.
Do I blame the person who is going to kill me? Do I hate him? No. I know that if I do not die now, then he and I will die in a fiery crash and six others will die if they don’t get the serum this little ship is carrying. I could never be so selfish as to try to live just for an hour longer. Tick, tock, tick, tock, tick, tock. I am too young to die, or so I thought. I had my whole life in front of me, my brother would have been there in a year and we would have been happy. I am only eighteen, a mere child. Unfortunately, to nature I am a cold equation. I am something that has to be put right or more than I shall die.
Tick, tock, tick, tock, tick, tock. I am in the airlock now. He says nothing as I walk by the man that is going to kill me. What can he say? What can I say? I know this is difficult for him though he gets to live and I did nothing to die for. I want to see his face, but cannot through the tears in my eyes. The airlock is so cold, yet only a small taste of what is to come in mere moments. Tick, tock, tick, tock, tick, tock.
He shuts the door and I am in total darkness. Any stoic thoughts or ideas I may have had, flees from me now. I am so very glad I was able to talk to my brother, I know this will be hard for him and for my parents but they will survive. I try not to think about my imminent death. Tick, tock, tick, tock, tick, tock. I hear the inner door lock. I take a deep breath, knowing it will do me no good, a force of habit. The outer door begins to open and I feel the pull of vacuum upon me.
I hit my back on the opening door and lose the breath I held, knowing I shall never be able to take another breath. I am in terrible pain. The worst pain I have ever had in my young life. The vacuum of space is not easy on the human body. I feel like I am going to explode! I quickly fade away as death mercifully starts dragging me with it. I have one last agonizing though: But I did nothing to die for.
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